i think marriage is scary

my period this time is one hell of an emotional roller-coaster ride,man..
mr.right now is having a tough time coping with my crazy mood swing.
but he's doing it well..and that somehow scares me.

my relationship with my boss is okay now.we've opened up to each other and now i hope he'll stop treating me like a girl.i mean i AM a girl,and he's not a sexist.oh,y'knahmsayin....

my girlfriends are great.
used to be better with boys,but now im slacking with them.
girlfriends rock big time!:p

my relationship with the mane is even better.
im tossing the comb and wuteverthe-hairserum-hell i have into the bin.
mousse balls and scrunching ur hair is cool yo.

my parents' marriage is still in turbulence.
my relationship with mom and dad is okay,and that's all that's important now,i guess.but i hate my dad a lil bit for not trying to pretend to be ok in front of us.mom's better at that.

everytime i smoke now,there's this terrible headache gnawing me.and i get nauseous.its funny cuz usually nausea means time to change the rokok brand.:p so,not so good relationship with the sticks now.

now that ive semi-officially moved out of the house,kak konah has fully dominated my brother's dick.she gets to decide what is to be on my brother's plate and what is not during buka puasa buffet.i can tell frm his face that he's unhappy.poor brother.tsk.now that is another bad relationship i see.

well,relationship is one thing that u have to work on everysingletime.
and that requires a good communication and commitment.

scary.

yes,im commitment phobic like that but no matter tho..
it may just simply be that this person is not at the point in her life where a serious relationship is appropriate; a career or other matters may be taking precedence.*ehem*

if only life is as easy as smoking we.ed - even if u're having problems and u acknowledge it,u're just too happy to even bother.

but when u're sober and reality kicks in,..ermm ok,that's another story.:p

i sound so depressed eh.
it must be the hormones.

ok,happy thoughts pls:

jim alip pa alip nun.woohoo!
or is it jim pa wau nun?

ok,wot evvahh..

oh,people.SHE's back!!!(clicketty click!)

i think today i want-g to eak satar *nyums*

27% from 317 of Malay women in the Klang Valley aged between 20 and 40 who chatted online were looking for a life partner. (correction:looking for new friends; underline the word friends ya.teehee.)

17% women went online because they were lonely. (*sigh*)

15% were looking for love and companionship. (uh-huh..?uh-hurm.:p)

14% who chat did so because they were bored. (uh-hurm.)

8% chatted for fun. (hell yeah!)

3% chatted to keep in touch with friends. (yup,true)

"Women longed for intimate relationships and were unhappy if they did not have that. "
"This is the time when they are looking for a husband."
"The women who chatted online felt they were not attractive and their self-esteem was low. But they were actually beautiful young women."

Read more here :p

i think i almost lost my drive

I am a bottled fizzy water and you were shaking me up.

And will you be through.
it's just a phase.

It will be over soon.

i think i hit a jackpot! *duh!*

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Congratulations once again winner!!!

i think i lurrrrrve pe.nang!

hello crasy people,

meet my munkees...:)

ayil (the blur2 munkee) + amai (the tooney munkee)

P/S ayil will be featured in macam2 az.nil some time later.

watch out y'all.:p

i think it was unintended

I was fully biased to des’ patriotic post when I left a comment on a stranger’s blog (obviously was bloghopping) questioning what did the blogger meant by selamat hari jadi, Malaysia. Being ignorant, I only knew about Malaysia wasn’t born on Aug 31 yadda yadda yadda from des’ post. (Thanx des for the info :) )

So like a 3 years old who has just learnt how to say “Wassup mannn..?!” I was excited and eager to please share. So there I was on this blog, asked the blogger that, and offered the person my two cents’ worth. The said person could have scored A for history and knew that already, but heyy sharing is caring kan?:p

The blogger must have had a mood swing or something that day, thus the blogger misunderstood my comment, just like i misunderstood a male ex-schoolmate's "saya sayang awak" sms on merdeka eve. I thought he was falling in love with me (met him after 5 years at a wedding, exchanged numbers and he started being weird since then). I read the sms the next day and realized that i have to scroll down for more and CHOYYYYYYY! it was some kind of a forwarded sms which ended with "Oh Malaysia tanah air ku.." :p

Anyways, sorry if u were somewhat offended by that. U must have really been bothered by that one simple comment and u must be more IT savvy than me. And by now I know u know who I am (the thought of u click-click-click to track me is almost overwhelming,woohoo!:p), so hi, I'm Tina *shake hands* lets do the buang-yang-keruh-ambil-yang-jernih and be real nice the next time we meet, as you've promised, aight? ;)

Oh, wot everrrrr.. *ROTFLOL* :p

P/s Happiest birthday, Mom! I love u i love u i love youuuuuuuu!

i think i need a haircut

So between si.ti-ma.wi and the tv.3-ast.ro/rt.m battle, who won eh?
Whatever it is, im just glad that the madness is over.

Selamat menyambut hari kemerdekaan, people.
(What ever does merdeka means to you
and how ever you may want to celebrate it)
Remember, there’s no right or wrong way to celebrate it.
Do wot u wanna do mmmkay? Just don’t drink and drive.;p

I love you, Mal.aysia!

i think im a crab in my next nirvana

oh hai.

memandangkan bulan ini adalah bulan org kawen kemerdekaan, jadi saya rasa nak mencuba menulis entri dalam bahasa kita no matter how stupid i may sound.lagi pula,kepala terasa sakit bagai nak gila dan mata tak boleh lelap.sambil menunggu kesan dadah mengambil efek,baik saya mengarang..

hati sebenarnya sakit juga kerana laptop yang digunakan agak mereng,asyik terkeluar tanda sama dengan dengan sendiri.kalau saya give up,saya berhenti lah menulis.

sabtu lepas,seorang kawan rapat telah melansungkan perkahwinan dengan lelaki pilihannya.congrats lizzie.a grand wedding,i must say.saya paling suka dengan majlis nikahnya the night before kerana ada lauk yang tak pernah saya jumpa orang masak untuk wedding,iaitu lauk tempe goreng sambal dengan ikan bilis bagai.walaupun saya bukan orang jawa,tapi tempe is like yumminess ok..:p saya bedal macam orang buruk lantak,tak kisah la mak datin mak datins keliling nak cakap apa.

lizzie dah pecah rekod as the 1st one dalam kaum kerabat (geng skolah) yg kawin dulu.gila lah..tak terfikir pun lizzie akan kawin dulu.kami duduk bersebelahan sejak tingkat satu hingga lima.tak pernah kami berbual tentang hal ini.tapi menurut teori wegra,orang yang lembut2 biasanya kawin dulu.maka tinggallah kami yang kurang lembut ini,tak tau bila turn masing2.:p

lizzie memang lembut.tapi bila dia gelak atau bersin,satu bangunan boleh dengar.heheh.agak pemalu,tapi tetap extrovert.oh,lizzie juga mempunyai bear hug yang paling comfy dalam dunia ini.kami akan bear hug each other bila suka,bila duka.terapi yang berkesan sekali waktu itu.

seperti biasa bila musim kawin, everybody will keep asking one another the typical 'ko bila pulak' question.

saya pergi dengan kawan karib,maka soalan itu banyak yang menanyakan pada saya diikuti dengan lirikan nakal ke arah partner saya malam itu.sebenarnya i imported my handsome bestfriend frm JB to the wedding sebab initially i had to go alone and my other friends were coming with BFs.jadi saya bawak dia just because i dont wanna look like a loser in front of my exes cuz wedding usually means reunion with old friends.heheh.sebenarnya saya tak perlu bawak dia pun sebab i looked gorjes enough on my own another female friend was partnerless,akhirnya kami pergi bertiga.

paling seronok wedding lizzie ialah bertemu mr.ong,orang yang bertanggungjawab buat saya pandai add maths.he remembers me!agak ralat kerana tak sempat bergambar dengannya.:(

oh im digressing.

sebenarnya saya nak bercerita pasal teman sekolah yang saya jumpa di wedding itu.dia tidaklah rapat dengan saya semasa di sekolah.kami tak se-geng,dia budak baik,saya budak terejal.malam itu kami tak semeja,meja pula jauh2,kebetulan terserempak di tandas,berborak sebentar.

dia antara kawan2 yg dok kepochi bertanya siapakah gerangan male escort yang saya bawa mlm itu.saya bilang kawan saja.jadi u single lagi la?(sila perasan perkataan 'lagi' ye).saya tanya apa maksud 'lagi'?dia kata ye lah,since ah lek (ex bf saya ketika form 5,bkn name sebenar) dah tak pernah berpasangan?saya malas nak cerita panjang lebar,lagipun jika saya cerita padanya,sebentar lagi pasti dia gossip dengan teman2 semejanya,jadi saya senyum saja.dia beri satu pandangan ohmygodyouaresopathetic look pada saya.ok,fine,apa2 aje lah.

kemudian she started bragging about her getting married next year to our schoolmate juga.good looking,berjaya bagai.katanya saya rugi kerana one of the good guys yang susah nak cari sekarang dah hilang satu,dapat pada dia.tak rugi pun kerana temannya bukan selera saya.sempat juga dia kata dia tak dapat bayangkan dirinya single,dia tak biasa sendiri,mesti berteman lelaki.how do u deal with that (loneliness)?tanya dia.oh u must have no friends at all eh,kata hati saya.saya kata padanya saya sedang sibuk baru nak membina karier *bwek* lagipun sejak azali lagi saya memang cepat bosan bukan jenis yang gemar berkepit 24jam dengan boyfriend.saya tahu dia pasti yang saya hanya memberikan alasan saja kerana di wajahnya masih ada that youarealoser look.dalam hati saya mengatakan dia yg ala2 loser sebenarnya kerana walau besar mana dunia ini,dia masih stuck dengan kepompong budak sekolah kami juga.rasanya dia pun loser juga,kerana saya rasa that also means that she couldnt find anybody outside that she had to settle for him.mungkin lah.

mujur partner saya called,jadi conversation yang tak enak tadi dapat dihentikan.saya pulang ke tempat duduk dengan perasaan eager to bitch share the juicy gossip.saya hampir pasti dia akan buat perkara yang sama juga setiba di mejanya.heh.

kenapa ya,sekarang ini masih ada orang yang berfikiran kalau masih single itu maknanya total loser?kenapa kalau tidak ada manusia bernama teman lelaki jadi hidup jadi kosong dan tak lengkap?yang penting,kenapa wujud golongan yang mudah sangat nak memandang rendah pada mereka yang tidak/belum berteman?

single tak semestinya loser.tapi benar sesetengah dah lama mencari-cari,tapi tak dapat2,maka kelihatan desperate.yang tidak terlalu mencari pasangan pula biasanya selalu end up dengan yang tak berapa semenggah perangainya.jadi mereka fikir lebih baik lepak saja kerana love sometimes comes when u least expect it.

kosongkah hidup kalau tak berteman lelaki (yang istimewa lah)?tsk.sangat pelik,bukan?yang ini susah saya nak relate kerana sememangnya mind set saya tak pernah begini.jadi saya akan tetap terus pelik dengan mereka yang berfikiran begini.mungkin saya tak terasa kosong kerana saya ada teman2 lelaki yang sudi melayan karenah saya bila saya gila,sedih,marah atau mengada-ngada nak bermanja.:p dan saya ada teman2 wanita yang will always be there for me.

dan kepada mereka yang selalu beri that look when another female announced that she is not seeing anybody,tolonglah jangan prejudis.

bagi saya masing2 punya sebab kenapa masih solo,jadi elok jika hanya biarkan hal ini.maksudnya,jangan terlalu bertanyakan bila nak berteman atau bila nak settle down.mungkin ada yang tanpa teragak-agak dapat memberi sebab-musabab mereka,tapi mungkin ada yang kurang senang.jadi jangan tanya ok,lebih-lebih lagi di musim ini.:) bagi saya,saya tidak kisah untuk jelaskan.but that depends on my mood too..;p

pada lizzie,semoga kekal ke anak cucu.semoga bila giliran saya juga nanti kekal ke anak cucu.teehee.

(oh sgt panjang post ini rupanya..) :p