i think this is good stuff

Weggy mentioned about this film last week, a good film she said. I watched the trailer and well, I'm hooked.:P Gotta watch this movie.

i think it's the kind of fool love makes

When it comes to friendship, I'm not picky. I have a hijab-clad friend who has been my friend since uni days who keeps giving me free khutbah everytime I see her. But I love her, still. I have nerdy friends, I have weird friends and one even has this habit of poking her own bellybutton, I have friends who do drugs, a himbo, and sexmaniacs, and the list goes on.

I normally take no interest in other people's life. Sure, I gossip with my girlfriends all the time, but I don't really repeat them to others because these gossips, they just masuk telinga kiri, and keluar telinga kanan. You may say that I suffer from a short term memory loss. Even my boyfriend hates me for this.:P

I may have heard all sort of things being spoken about me or my friends, I might know the truth sometimes. (Whether it's) True or not, I don't give a rat's ass.

I really hate it when somebody drags me in their problems, especially with their boyfriend-girlfriend's problems. I think it's something that you can work out with your partner without an outside help.

If I am your girlfriend's bestfriend, you can call me to ask me things like what do I think would be the perfect birthday gift for her but don't go calling me asking for your girlfriend's whereabouts at any time of the day and don't ask me to verify something or whatever.

It's not that I don't care about my friends. I am a Cancerian, thus I am caring, it's in my star. It's just that I like to draw this line when it comes to that matter.

So what will happen when your boyfriend gets me involved in your personal issues? I am not okay with it. I hate it. I doesn't make me feel comfortable.

I'd like to think of myself as a true girlfriend. There are some things you guys out there should know about a girlfriend's girlfriends.

Okay, first of all, we girlfriends do not tell secrets to the boyfriend. Especially to the second or third or fourth boyfriend whom we don’t like, arrogant, perasan hensem, or perasan bagus.

Secondly, you should not, should never and shouldn’t have involved the girlfriends whenever you guys fight. Remember, sometimes girlfriends disapprove of their girlfriend's boyfriend. If we hate you (the boyfriend), and if you drag us, it will only makes us hate you even more.

And thirdly, it’s none of our business, really. And do we look like we care?

Anyway, what's up with those who like to talk bad things about people they don't really know? And passing judgments that is prejudicial to others who read/heard them?

Making harsh allegations about others is wrong, especially when you don't even know them. Judging people by first impression is not fair. Accusing them of something that you heard from others is very wrong.

And to tell your girlfriend’s most intimate secret(s) to your boyfriend is very very wrong.

Alright, bygones. Lets move on now.

Introducing Kate Nash. Another cool lass who sings vulgarity. Discovered her while reading the free Juice magazine when I was in HRC Singapore last time. Here's one of my fave song of hers.

i think i need a miracle

Resolutions 2007 revisited:

Spend more time with family. Check.

Save money. I'm trying my level best, but I don't earn that much, how la to save?:P

Get out of debt. Dear God, please please please help me with this.

Stop using credit cards for unnecessaries. Check.

Resume my swimming classes. (Last year's reso) Tak jejak swimming pool lansung last 2007. But I’m keeping this.

Start learn Japanese. (Last year's (2006).Yawnnn..) I’m keeping this too. Have ordered some learning books from Japan, now waiting for them.

Learn something new. I’m taking this out of the list. I spent the whole 2007 figuring out what ‘something new’ I’d like to learn. Heh :P

Join voluntary works. Registered with Malaysian Aids Council. Haven’t join any voluntary works yet. Time constraint.

And maybe quit the sticks. Still struggling, but I’m doing good.:)

Read more books. Finished 3 out of 10 new books. Good progress, I reckon. :P

Be kind to humans and animals. Animals, yes. Humans, no. This morning I offended the makcik neighbor (ade ke sampah dia letak depan umah aku?). Not good, Tiena. Tsk tsk.

Spend less time bloghopping on the net during office hours. Berjaya! Since there are not much good blogs to read anymore these days.

I hope next year I'm gonna have a whole new list. It's kinda boring to recycle your list for three consecutive years, innit?

Hey, how has your 2008 been so far?:)

i think i should quit my job and become a teacher

I’m like a school-teacher with the way I’m always happy when it’s school holidays. Yeah.

That’s the only time I can wake up late and not having a heart attack as I look at the time on my alarm clock beside the bed and not having to shower, blow hair, dress up, powder, skip make up and warm up the car engine in a rush.

Because? It’s school holiday... Aaaaaah :) *eyes glitters*

The road is less congested. I don’t have to compete with parents who just dropped their kids at school and heading to work next. I don’t even have to worry about not going to make it to work on time or making up reasons for being late time and again. And what’s more absofuckinglutely important is the fact that a journey which normally takes 80-100minutes can be reduced to 40minutes! Isn’t that wonderful?

But school holiday’s ending soon. And MRR2 is going back to be the super beeyotch that she is. *sigh*

i think you should know

Dear Sayang,

I’m sorry I’m writing here instead of telling it to your face, because I want you to read this when you are alone, so that in a clearer-headed and much calmer condition, you can read and understand what I’m going to say.

I know we have been fighting about it lately. I know it upsets you big time. I know you want me to stop doing it for good reason. I know you are concerned. But believe me, Sayang, I have no intention to disrespect you, or hurt you even.

Sayang, this has been my vice and I am not proud of it. You knew about it, even before we met. You were well aware of it, weren’t you? It wasn’t an issue back then, then why should it be one at present?

Sayang, I’m not doing it to be ‘in the zone’, or attempting to look cool, or whatever faux pas’ reasons others could have for doing it.

It is something that I have been doing since I discovered that it resolved my issues. As silly as it sounds, it is the main reason. You know what issues kan, Sayang? No amount of water, veges, fruits or fiber or pil chi kit teck aun can help me. Do you know that it affects me both physically and emotionally? I get depressed and restless and my tummy gets buncit. Sometimes I get nauseous too.

It is not a rebellious act. I didn’t do it to show my protest against the world, let alone you. I don’t do it in your presence, which shows that I do respect you.

I have to be frank; you must know that I am not going to stop because of you. Not because you say so, not because you want me to.

Remember when you said that a breast enhancer cream would do me good, but I dismissed the idea automatically? It was because of the same principle – I will not change for anyone but me. I will not try to change anything about my body because I have no problem with it. I am satisfied and very much comfortable with my own bod.

So Sayang, I am going to smoke when I want to and stop when I feel like quitting, or when I am diagnosed with lung cancer *touches wood* or the price of a pack reaches my ceiling price of RM10 *touches wood*, whichever comes first.

I am not an addict, don’t worry Sayang. I guess a pack for a week doesn’t make me an addict, does it? I don’t break in cold sweats or shiver when I don’t smoke. Sometimes I could even go on without the sticks for months, simply because I can.

I know it is very hard for you to relate and comprehend cause you're not a smoker yourself. Hence it's not making it any easier for us.

I am breaking the habit. I can. I promise I will. The choice is mine, so I will bear whatever the consequence(s) responsibly.

I am sorry, Sayang. Please don’t stay mad at me for too long.. I need you, and most of all I need you to understand.

p/s: i love u

Yours truly,
Tiena.T

i think of peanut butter and chocolate ice cream..

Was tagged by Diamond Baby.

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night.
I can name two, in fact. M and K, those crasiesss peoples.

2. What were you doing at 0800?
Sexercising.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Turned on pc, checked emails, put on socks.

4. What happened to you in 2006?
A friend got pregnant and I was there for her. A year later she accused me of killing her baby.

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
“Meeting!”.

6. How many beverages did you have today?
None yet. I’m dreaming of hot chocolate and marshmallows di waktu2 hujan yang dingin ini…

7. What color is your hairbrush?
Sky blue.

8. What was the last thing you paid for?
RM1.80 for toll.

9. Where were you last night?
Meeting the girlfriends at your friendly neighborhood mamak.

10. What color is your front door?
Chocolate brown.

11. Where do you keep your change?
Almost everywhere.

12. What’s the weather like today?
Just like I’ve predicted yesterday, it is raining heavily as I type this.

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
BR’s Peanut Butter and Choc, Rum Raisin and B&J’s New York Super Fudge Chunk Ice Cream.

14. What excites you?
Gifts. Freebies. Kiasu, I know.:P

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
No lah, I wanna keep it long as he wants it. But I keep seeing myself with a short cropped hair a la Halle Berry these days when I look in the mirror.

16. Are you over the age of 25?
Not yet.:)

17. Do you talk a lot?
Depends on the person around me. Most of the time, I don’t.

18. Do you watch the O.C.?
Not anymore. Back in the uni, yes. A friend used to supply me with whatever tv series he downloaded from the net, so O.C was one of my fave.

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
Jenny Stevens, a contact person in Basingstoke.

20. Do you make up your own words?
Rasenye takde kot.

21. Are you a jealous person?
A mediocre one at that.

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
Alin.

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Kuzzy Wuzzy.

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
<3

25. What does the last text message you received say?
U dah mamam sayang? Kang I call u lepas settle semua. Have a nice day too baby.

26. Do you chew on your straw?
No. Donch like.

27. Do you have curly hair?
Yes I do.

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
Toilet!

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
Me. Teehee :P

30. What was the last thing you ate?
Potato chips.

31. Will you get married in the future?
Semestinya!

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
The Holiday jugak. Kat astro je.

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
You, if you are going to buy me that new cute lil ipod nano. *hint hint*

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
I can’t remember.:P

35. Are you currently depressed?
Yeah. Hari-hari kerja tapi tak kaya-kaya.:P

36. Did you cry today?
I haven’t cried since I was 15. (a line from The Holiday lah)

37. Why did you answer and post this?
Because I gotta pretend to be busy.:P

38. People I want to tag next:
Chikanozboy
Kuza :P
Jaja

i think im talking random here

Outside, it is raining so heavily. I can tell by the sound of the heavy downpour on my kilang’s roof. I predict, by squeezing one breast, that it is going to rain again tomorrow, same time, same lebat-ness.

I got last Sunday till Tuesday off, which was a humongous relief, because we’ve been working Saturdays since October.

3 days off and on Saturday, while driving back from work, I imagined curling up in bed whenever it rains, dvd marathons, eating and sleeping and keeping the cycle for three days.

But the old idiot box is broken, again. Two days before it died, there were sparks coming from behind the tv. But it was still okay for two days later. Then when Dad came, he said he couldn’t even turn it on. Tamatlah riwayat tv buruk..

3 days off and I’m tv-less. But that didn’t stop me from being a couch potato. Being the couch potato that I am, I could just lie on the sofa and do nothing, you know. Like, staring at the ceiling, or re-arranging the furnitures in the hall in my head, or counting the invisible frames by nailed down holes on the wall, or watching the view of the twin towers offered by my little flat’s window.

And when I got tired of staring at the ceiling, or re-arranging the hall’s furnitures in my head, or counting the invisible frames by the nailed down holes around the wall, or watching the view of the twin towers offered by my little flat’s window, and when I got tired of those, I’d pick a book that I have been trying to re-read and finish (at the moment, there are two: The Prodigal Daughter and Angela’s Ashes).

On Monday I got in the mood, to clean the house. I swiped and mopped and brushed scrubbed and got everything cleaned. Except the kitchen, of course. It is still dysfunctional and will be functional when I get myself a nice chrome fridge and perhaps a cute lil’ white oven too for some baking.

Nonetheless I am a happy ninja now, I’ve done my laundry and my changing room is neat and tidy! All I have to do is write to Santa and ask him for a 46” Bravia and a fridge cause I’ve been good.:P

i think it's disparaging

Privacy is having some secrets kept to yourself and not wanting to share them. Privacy is you locking yourself up in your room and dancing stark naked in front of the mirror. Privacy is you secluding yourself to a corner and wanking to some sexy centerfold model. Privacy means pretending not to know and not to butt-in your friends' relationships and refraining yourself from telling Matt about his girlfriend’s promiscuity or Lisa about his husband's infidelity.

Privacy is setting a certain degree of revealing something that is special or sensitive to a person. Privacy acquires a lot of respect.

Just how do you define privacy? How do you draw the line between what’s private to you and public to others?

Just because you share the same toothbrush, you think you have the authority to read your partner’s diary? Just because you think you are the best of friends, you could claim your right to interfere with your mate’s life? It’s this common fallacy that causes invasion of privacy.

As much as you respect other people’s privacy, in exchange you pretty much anticipate the same respect from others when it comes to your own privacy.

But privacy is too subjective, you could be expecting too much, you know.

And expectations; they too differs.. *sighs*