i think she's my everything

My girl, Anna Molly, is now one year old (since the day I got her lah). I don't really know the date she was born, she was about four months old when I got her, which technically means she is now 1 year and 4 months old, or something like that. :P

I thought of celebrating her birthday today when I realized it was a week ago.:P Sorry Sayang, Mummy forgot the exact date I got you. I thought it was on a Sunday two weeks after I got back from Phuket last year. But it was actually a week only, on 25th May 2009 to be exact. So yeah, Happy Belated Birthday, Molly! ;) *throws confetti*

There were times I tried to give her up, I'm sure glad I didn't. Can't believe that it has been a year since we co-existed. Now she's old enough, and I've found her a handsome boyfriend, we'll talk about family planning soon. ;)

Here's the first few pictures of her that were captured when I first brought her home, looking scared but sooo adorable. She still is.. (adorable, but no longer scared) ;)

Mummy loves you long time, Moyyie! *huggles*

i think this is true

While you SCREAM at your woman, there's a man wishing he could talk softly in her ear. While you HUMILIATE, OFFEND and INSULT her, there's a man flirting with her and reminding her how wonderful she is. While you HURT your woman, there's a man wishing he could make love to her. While you make your woman CRY there's a man stealing smiles from her.

Stand up against Domestic Violence!!!

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i think it feels like the first time when you kiss me my lover :)

Hugeness cuteness! Molly's future ex-husband. ;)

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i think life is good..

I hate my boss. It's no secret. He's a bitch who always has something up her (sic) sleeves. His success story of how he started off as a technician and worked his way up to a manager used to impress everyone, but now he's seen as just like another 'ground nut forgets its skin'. Lol. :P That's what power and fame do to you I guess. But I digress, the only reason I hate him is he's a snake. The kind who would be all nice in front of you and bitch about you behind your back. I mean, it baffles me - why would he want to bitch about his engineers? Doesn't that make him look equally bad? If your engineer is gaining recognition and visibility, aren't you suppose to be happy? Coz that could only be interpreted as your success as a manager in people development.

I am soooooo not a morning person. Every morning I would miss the daily 8.30 morning meeting by 5/10/15mins. Recently I am given a verbal warning because of my 'tardiness' issue. Now I know for a fact that he couldn't take any action on me because I know and he knows well that I am not going against the company's rule. The 8.30 meeting is his rule. And even if I am late I am still in before 9 which is the company's rule. Whatsmore I am not the only one who'd be late. Almost everyone is late.

Anyhow I acknowledge my problem. So what I did was, I went and see a manager from another group which I deal a lot with them. Luck was on my side, he was more than happy to have me on his team. It's a win-win situation for me. I get to do the same thing as what I'm doing now minus the 8 fucking 30 meeting. And I'm pretty sure I get to 'shine' just as bright there (ya Allah, perasan gila!)

I told my boss about my plan to move to that other team. I was then called to see the HOD. Long story short, they wouldn't let me go. Even 'reminded' me that no one wants you if you're having tardiness problem. Wasn't that a threat?? If I am such a bad apple, just let me go goddamnit!

What a bitch kan? And I haven't even started on what he did to my good friend Soo. She worked hard last year only to be labeled as an under performer. Now he's getting rid of her by shifting her to another group and telling everyone how he's 'relieved' to let go of her. Wtf?

Despite the frustrations I have for my direct supervisor, I gotta say that things are looking up for me. Although I am notorious for my 'tardiness' issue, I am recognized for my ability and potential (amboi, perasannya...!). Well, at least that's what my HOD told me (that's what matters the most) and that was what reflected in my yearly review la.

I know I should count my blessing. I didn't work that hard and look where it got me. All I gotta do now is ignore the bitch, work on my projects, give it a lil more extra effort if not my all and let's see where it's gonna take me. ;)

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I think you make me shine like gold, buzz like a bee ;)

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I think I'm done being melancholic :P

Went for a trip on the east coast. Perfect way to get over February I must say, where things were just super crazy and taxing.

The trip was also a reward to self to celebrate things. I feel like slapping myself silly when I realized that I had chose to hang my head in sorrow in February, overshadowing the things and people I should really be thankful of.

But I digress. The trip did me good.

I buried down all memories from the past in the soil of Redang, washed my wounds with the clear blue salt water. And isn't salt water good for your wounds? Scabs were all cleaned up, washed by salt water and dried up by the glorious sun. I know I am scarred but at least it's not bleeding anymore.

I lost my good ol' buddy there - my Sony T10 who has been with me for more than 5 years. The longest relationship I've ever had in my entire life. Haha. Like most things I've lost, I lost it carelessly. Got to admit I was deeply affected by it, but I guess I've matured a bit, I didn't beat myself up about it.

Enough with negativities. I started 2010 infused with hope and hopelessness. I made peace with myself, I have been sabotaging myself at work and jeopardized the reputation I had built. It was like sailing in a rough sea, I was terrified of drowning (cause I don't know how to swim, haha) but I thank The Present for volunteering to be my life guard, ever ready to throw me a float, ever willing to jump in and save me.

And for that I am sanguine, I am going to just live for the moment, be happy and be grateful. Amin.



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i think it's a sale (part II)

Nokia E63 for sale!

Used for less than 5 months.

Selling dirt cheap (seriously!), email me if interested. ;)

tienaschmojes at gmail dot com